February 17, 2014

When There's Never Enough Time in Your Day...

We're all busy people.

Some days are busier than others, but lately I've felt like I'm going a mile a minute -- or more.

See, I work three jobs: as a copywriter at my full-time job, as an online English instructor, and as a fiction author. Not to mention the jobs of wife, friend, daughter, and sister.

And a lot of times, I'm super organized and get lots accomplished in a day. Other times, not so much.

Lately, I've been feeling really down, almost depressed about this elusive thing I seek: rest. It's like I'm going, going, going and look forward to the day when life won't be so busy. But who am I kidding? Life will always be busy! Yes, I can eliminate some things, and simplify a bit -- but I'm pursuing a dream, and that always takes extra time and energy. Plus, life just happens!

I came across this quote last week in Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts that just totally resonated with me and where I'm at:

"I don't really want more time; I just want enough time. Time to breathe deep and time to see real and time to laugh long, time to give You glory and rest deep and sing joy and just enough time in a day not to feel hounded, pressed, driven, or wild to get it all done -- yesterday."

I wrote this in my prayer journal after reading that:

I love these moments in the middle of my day: when I get to be quiet and enjoy the sunlight and bask in You. When the puppies are still and quiet with me, when I leave my cell phone in the other room, and I just am.

How rare these moments are, what with so many things crowding out my day. It's easy to get so busy -- or just make my priorities different than they should be -- and forget to spend time in quiet. Sometimes I really wish hard for a simplified life, one where I work one job and focus on time with Mike and cook good meals and walk the dogs. 

And some days, that IS my life. 

But many times, my days are crazy busy and I don't know what to cut or how to balance. I'm sick of working three jobs but I know there are certain times that's necessary. 

There will always be something I'm not happy with, won't there? Oh Father, please -- I want my life to be filled with joy and contentment. I do. Help me to have joy and gratitude even when there are hard parts of life -- which there always are!

God, carry me. I'm pretty lost without You. I need to focus this week, relish life, and take joy in time with Mike and friends. I should stay away from the TV and read more. I should find the things I love and take more time for them. 

I'm finding that life is lived one day -- sometimes, one moment -- at a time. And I'm grateful that God knows what each one will hold.

Your Turn: How do you deal with the busyness of life? 

* I'll be taking off next week from blogging, since I'll be in Florida at a writing retreat!
** Check out my recent guest post on Casey Herringshaw's blog. I talked about what I would tell the pre-married me if I could!
*** Photo courtesy of freedigitalphotos.net

February 10, 2014

Gratitude: What's Going on in Lindsay Land

Lately, I've been feeling a little down. I have my reasons, but suffice it to say that I've been discontent with some things in my life.

But I've also been reading Ann Voskamp's One Thousand Gifts. Amazing book! Seriously. Her prose is exquisite. Plus, it has been teaching me a lot about gratitude.

I'll probably write another post about how this book has challenged me, but for now, I'm choosing to focus on the great things in my life. Because I'm blessed to have many.

So here's a little glimpse at some of the joys of my life lately (in addition to the obvious things like awesome friends and family, etc.):

New reads
I've got some great books in my To Be Read pile, like Rachel Hauck's latest release, Princess Ever After! I'm so looking forward to digging in, enjoying the journey, and learning from the greats.

New habits
I'm trying really hard to change my eating habits. That doesn't mean I don't fall off the wagon occasionally (especially when I don't feel good!), but I've been trying to eat more "real food" -- aka, food without artificial preservatives, dyes, etc. -- and make more food from scratch. A few weeks ago, we had homemade pizza (complete with homemade dough) and it was one of the best pizzas I've ever eaten! Yum!!

Lots of musicals!
Mike and I got season tickets to see four different shows at Gammage, our local theater that produces really great Broadway-style shows. Just this weekend, we saw Wizard of Oz and it was wonderful. The little dog that played Toto stole the show.

Cute puppies
My puppies Chloe and Pascal always keep me laughing. Pascal fell asleep like this last week and it was adorable!

Revisions and a retreat
I'm working on revisions for my book, The Song Inside. It's going to take a lot of work and butt-in-chair time, but I've already got the first three chapters rewritten. That's something, right?

And at the end of this month, I get to go to Florida for a writing retreat (the picture above is me and a few friends at the retreat last year). It's just what I need to get recharged! I plan to soak up the sun (if there is any this year!) and as much knowledge as I can from some women who have played a huge role in my writing life.

Your Turn: What's going on in your neck of the woods? What are you grateful for today?